equal

I see the most in what isn’t possible
When the rain pours, I smile discreetly
I wipe my hands with evergreen leaves
And wash my face with grape soap
I accept what is not given to me
I always reap what I sow

When the sky is clear, my days are dark
When my cup is full, emptiness is all I see
I return the favor by smiling
I execute my sorrow by laughing
I reject all ideas of promises
I define my own reality

I am wiser than ever before
I have a crumb of pride deep inside
In the middle of my heart where the peace lies
The bitterness will soon die
I need to love, I need to care
All I ask is for my life to be fair

soul mate

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so out of control that you have to transform your life…

E. Gilbert

charmingly human

Rise and Shine
This new endeavor is ready and mine
Sculpted from a sentiment so deep
Widely driven from the undercoat of heat
I give peace
In which the heart speaks ……..

The time has come
In third person form
Depth with reception of vigorous charm
He weeps, oh he weeps
To have someone enter again
Coming from a wilderness afar

What was fed to him
He ate
High and mighty
His prayers go
Dirty and low; the esteem flows
Watch him wash his hands

See his pupils glow
And view how the hair on his chest grow
Silly stupid him he has been
Letting the bad one back in
It’s time to rock his life away
And never wonder of being left astray

Circling of his world no more
The dizziness fades
Sweet as a donut’s glaze
He’s finally over that phase
When he thought he fell
He just realize he was over that spell

His writing rhymes with repetition
Something his life never lacks
The time has come to finally live peacefully
To be right without reason
Elegantly believing his heart
To be faithful without return

Beautifully blowing his own mind

...

"Maybe you're only allotted a certain amount of tears per man; and I've used mine up."

loved.

I’ve experienced a lot in the past 11 months
I have loved someone deeply
I even said “ I love you” a few times

We slow danced to Rascal Flatts
I had given him my all
I even bought him long stemmed roses

I’ve traveled a few times to see him
I have written many poems about him
I even go on his facebook page to see his pictures

We walked on the beach holding hands
I had given him a massage while our favorite songs were playing
I even brought him around my family

I’ve cared so much
I have seen the magnitude of my love
I even cried

I was true
I was honest
I was real

I wanted him to love me like I loved him
I needed him to be my friend
I wanted him to talk to me like I talked to him
I needed him to be my vessel

For me to worry
For me to think about him all day
For me to fight for what I believed
I was a fool

I was a distant dreamer
I was blinded by reality
I was a young man who fell in love
For me to be out my mind

Then …

I remember his face when I surprised him in April
I remember us running after each other at the park
I remember waking up & looking into his eyes
I remember the look he gave me when I first told him I loved him
I remember tickling him until he begged me to stop
I remember the way he said my name when we were making love

Then I remembered …

How foolish I felt when I came to see him
How empty I felt when the anniversary arrived
How my heart melted when he laughed
How did I get so deep

I got addicted to loving someone
I got addicted to being caring
I was finally on my last cry for help

Now…

I have the strength to say I’m tired
Now I have the right to leave it alone
I finally loved truthfully & faithfully

I just pray I will not gain bitterness
I just pray for him & his happiness
I just pray whomever the next person for me maybe…

He loves me like I LOVED,
Loving me right the first time around because now I know my worth

So my journey begins…

p i e c e s (part II)

I’m scared to live another day
Not sure if this pain will ever go away
The hurt I’m going through has been like no other
I have needles in my heart
This love will soon turn into hate
If I could let him go, I would’ve months ago

My nights are getting better
I’m sleeping more & more consistently
I doze off with hurt in my heart
I wake up with love on my mind
I’m dreaming less & less

I’m facing another day without him
Another day to review my mistakes
I was holding on too long
While being his stepping stone
I was being played by an Angel
Love doesn’t get any better than this

In my head, I already let him go
Now I’m waiting on my heart to follow
Soon, I will be free from this
Until then
Another day of me picking up the pieces

inLOVE

I finally fell in love today
I looked at him & something was different
He wasn't like the others
A glow to him made my heart believe

He looked back at me and smiled
He knew my thoughts, he knew my heart
We’ve known each other for a while now
We almost lost each other through our way of life

We came together today
unplanned and un-designed
He told me he will never leave me
until God separates us

He is the perfect image of my heart
Loving me hard, loving me safely
He spoke to me this morning in my dreams
Telling me I had no more worries

He was going to take care of me
Watch out for me
Console me
Protect me

He was my bodyguard through life
I’ve never experienced a love like this before
This was uncommon to my mind
He loved me deeply & told me with a sincere look

I stared into his eyes for a few minutes & smiled
He smiled back
I gently put my hand on his chest to feel his heart beat
Precisely like mine

This wasn’t a dream
He was actually real
I finally fell in love today
A long time coming

How selfish of me to forget about myself?