Tuesday, August 23, 2011

10 digits



10 digits doesn’t mean anything to me
A number is just a number
You text & I may reply
You call & I may answer

10 digits is my one night stand
My sex without emotion
My guilty pleasure
When I see numbers, I’m never disappointed
10 digits can act a fool
Within a moment,
I will forget they even existed

Your digits I can’t get out of my mind
Your name sets the tone for a connection
Your name reminds me of our past
Its sets my mind to believe we can do this
We can work things out

If I change these 10 digits to your name
I’m afraid my emotions may begin its marathon
I will remember how seeing your name …
made me smile
made me miss you
made me want you even more

If I change these 10 digits to your name
I may start feeling sorry for you
I may want you back
I may allow your ways back into my life

After reflecting …
your name will go unlisted
So you can call or text
I may reply, I may answer or I may leave it be
Just now know,
your 10 digits mean nothing to me.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

HIM

I need you like I’ve never needed you before

I’ve always been afraid to talk to you
I always feel like you’re judging me
I know you have the right to be upset with me
I have done wrong

I should talk to you more
I should believe in you more
My strength is failing
My mental state is fading
I need you

Please forgive me for my wrongs
Please love me again
Watch over me, protect me
Make me think wiser
Make me trust the intangible
Make me believe in you

I’ve always had a fear for death
I’ve always knew you existed
I’ve always felt like I was someone special to you
I’ve always wanted to please you

I miss the peace I used to feel
I miss the comfort of knowing you were around
I miss the days when I knew everything was going to be alright

I miss you.