Part I.

I want to tell him but I’m afraid things will change

I enjoy our conversations
He has a strong voice which ignites my attention
I enjoy his stories
Learning while exploring his world
I want him

Things will change

The time will soon come when a decision will be made

We are both grown
We are both mature
We both want each other
We will unite

I want to tell him
I should tell him
Tell him that I’m officially his
Tell him that he’s my one & only
I could tell him that I love him
But that’s what the future is for
Today, I’ll just tell him I’m starting fresh
I’m going to love like I’ve never been hurt before
& see where it takes me

Hopefully to a part II.

my naked soul

I’m afraid of the world ending
I’m afraid of living a lie
I’m afraid to have love come my way
There’s a lot of fear in my mind
I fear snakes
I fear scorpions
I fear living my life alone
I’m afraid of falling in love while he doesn’t love me back
I’m afraid of having a failed friendship
I’m afraid to trust
I have a deep fear in my body
I fear suffering
I fear homelessness
I fear God
I’m afraid my life doesn’t matter
I’m afraid of being loved
I’m afraid of letting go
I fear the new
I free freedom
I fear change

I am afraid of not having control