Monday, February 14, 2011

valentine.



Days have elapsed & you’re not here
Months have gone by & you’re miles away
It’s been almost a year &
I still remember your lips
Your smooth skin, your ability to make me shy

I remember when I held you
Your body was so soft
Your skin taste so sweet
I remember kissing your neck
While my hands were around you

Could he be mine one day? I asked myself
Time was against us but
I felt special that morning
Knowing you were right there with me
My world felt untroubled

Reminiscing on the time we had
I wish I could have talked to you more
I wish I could have guarded you longer
I wish I could have whispered more in your ear
I wish our meaningful dialogue would have never ended

I know I’m no longer in the running
I lost the race
I just knew you were too good to be true
So delightful, so enduring, so clever
The person you are, I will soon meet again

Someone like you will enter my universe &
When he comes, I will not forget you
But until he comes
You will remain my intangible valentine

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

uncle




written on 1/10/11


I’m not sure what to do
I’m not sure what to say
I could cry but I don’t want to feel weak
I could laugh but I don’t want to seem happy

Two weeks ago; my life changed
I didn’t realize how strong I could be
Or how strong I could pretend to be

I lost my love
My best friend
My father
My uncle

We always said we loved each other after every phone call
Sometimes in between conversations
He made me laugh; he made me think about my life
He was my angel

I lost my twin
My counselor
My teacher
My mentor

When I’m alone the tears fall
When I’m alone I smile effortlessly
When I’m alone I think about how he made me feel
How I trusted him so

He knew my secrets
He knew me
He knew my heart
He knew me

Two weeks ago; my life changed
But I can no longer be selfish
It was his time to leave me

No more suffering, no more crying, no more pain
No more doctor visits, no more dialysis, no more misery

I learned to never complain because it could always be worse
My uncle was the strongest man I ever came in contact with
My uncle was the best gift God could have ever given me

I am thankful

*continues crying*