happy alone

There’s a reason why I said I’ll be happy alone.
It wasn’t because I thought I’ll be happy alone.
It was because I thought if I loved someone & then it fell apart,
I might not make it.
It’s easier to be alone because what if you learn you need love
& then you don’t have it?
What if you like it & lean on it?
What if you shape your life around it & then it falls apart?
Can you even survive that kind of pain?
Losing love is like organ damage, it’s like dying.
The only difference is…
Death ends but this can go on forever.

- Ellen Pompeo