he HATES me

The likelihood of him
The man that gave me life
He gave me these thoughts
The thoughts that make others hate me

My inner feelings
Shameful at times to tell a soul
He already knew my thoughts
He invented my thoughts

I’m an evil individual
It’s a SIN to be me
But he put these thoughts in my head
Since I can remember
The attraction I have for my kind
This addiction can’t be washed away with soap
or cleared with cocoa butter

Others experience these feelings much later in life
After high school or
when they are adults
But not me
He gave me these feelings early
I was less than five years old
A baby to this place called earth
I was innocent once...
new to this world
He put thoughts in my head
I was unaware of
Scared to ask questions...
the same sex looked good to me

This attraction for death
Hate crimes exist highly for my kind
He gave me these feelings while
Others have different situations
Molestation can drive them to my place
Drug Addiction can lead them to my path
Trends lead them in front of me

These feelings are not man-made,
not made-up
He gave me these feelings &
he wants me to change???
At least this is what the world thinks

He must hate me...
giving me this inclination so early
Drug addicts have a choice,
Cigarette smokers have a choice
Volunteering feelings in my head exist
Without my notification
It’s not my fault I am the way I am
Feelings so vigorous
so UN denied

He loves me, the bible says
I’m no different from the boy born blind,
the girl born with one leg,
the boy born with AIDS
He chose me for reasons unknown
I must still live for him,
Praise Him,
& Cherish Him
I thought he hated me
until I realized he was just
being GOD