without it

Many say I’m a fool
But I believe I’m nothing but a hopeless
I know what I am capable of
I know my worth
I believe love will come
Love always finds a way
I am not perfect & I don’t want my love to be
We will have our ups & downs
I will piss him off
He will make me angry
But at the end of it all
Our love will get us through

Yes.
I believe this to be true

Many say I’m dumb for holding on to love
I feel they are missing out for letting love go
There’s a strong possibility I will get hurt again
Someone will make me cry
But I will always give love another try

Yes
I believe this to be true.

Many say love is a myth
They say true love only happens in movies
But I know love will never do without me
So for now on
I will be worry free
Loving at my best,
As long as I can be

runner up

My heart has always been somewhere else
Never where it should be
I’ve loved. I’ve lost.
I lost what I wanted
I loved what I didn’t need

My heart hearts challenges
It grieves mistakes
My heart loves to love
It pumps faster with doubt
My heart fears loneliness
Then it creates a place for acceptance

My heart is usually lost
Lost in a state of second place

my moment

There’s something about that certain feeling
That feeling when you realized you will be okay
The moment when you know someone is watching you
Taking care of you
There’s something to be said for not saying anything anymore
Where your words can’t do your thoughts justice
Explaining seems unnecessary
When your actions mean more than the words you speak
There’s something about being at peace
Knowing who you are
Knowing God has your back
There’s something about closing your eyes
Taking a deep breath & saying,
“Thank You God”
Then exhaling with ease

the idea.

We say we want a future with someone
We say we want someone to call our own
But do we really want it?

The idea of a relationship is beautiful
The idea of being someone’s one & only can be remarkable
It can be.
Could, would, should
Yes.
Should’ve Would’ve Could’ve

Many of us should’ve taken that extra step
Many of us would’ve made more of an effort if we knew what we knew today
Many of us could’ve loved him or her a little better

The idea of loving someone unconditionally will have your heart skipping beats

The reality of heartbreak will burn your deepest desires. Your idea will be ousted

We say we want that fairy tale
We say he was full of shit, she was no good
But sometimes ...
what we really mean is we were caught up in the idea

part II.

Worse than better
It ended before it even got started
I miss nothing
Not even the simple hello
The kiss after we said hello
The kiss before we said goodbye
I don’t miss it

I did learn more about my ways
The deal breakers
What I would
What I couldn’t compromise
I learned I could be the bad guy
But I learned something

Good men do stupid things
Stupid men love when it’s really a like
I was the smart one
No regrets, no feelings
Its over
Again. No regrets

Part I.

I want to tell him but I’m afraid things will change

I enjoy our conversations
He has a strong voice which ignites my attention
I enjoy his stories
Learning while exploring his world
I want him

Things will change

The time will soon come when a decision will be made

We are both grown
We are both mature
We both want each other
We will unite

I want to tell him
I should tell him
Tell him that I’m officially his
Tell him that he’s my one & only
I could tell him that I love him
But that’s what the future is for
Today, I’ll just tell him I’m starting fresh
I’m going to love like I’ve never been hurt before
& see where it takes me

Hopefully to a part II.

my naked soul

I’m afraid of the world ending
I’m afraid of living a lie
I’m afraid to have love come my way
There’s a lot of fear in my mind
I fear snakes
I fear scorpions
I fear living my life alone
I’m afraid of falling in love while he doesn’t love me back
I’m afraid of having a failed friendship
I’m afraid to trust
I have a deep fear in my body
I fear suffering
I fear homelessness
I fear God
I’m afraid my life doesn’t matter
I’m afraid of being loved
I’m afraid of letting go
I fear the new
I free freedom
I fear change

I am afraid of not having control